wants to be a happy girl.
God is a good God. God is love. God loves me.
finally, i have my break without thinking anything about my job. but it became a nightmare this evening. he called to ask me about how to do something. it was a horror, however, it is still funny though.
how do you generate barcode.
ohwells, it is just so simple by googling. i always think that google is your best friend when it come to things you dont know or unsure about. yet, i dont get it when people dont know how to take some initiative to look up. is kind of annoying though. the funny thing is, she could even ask me that she only want to change the number of the barcode. unfortunately, it cant be done. when a number is changed, the barcode format will also be different. like duhh.. such a general knowledge thing, she doesnt even know, how does she have the position of being a marketing executive? i really questioning my potential sometimes.
but who cares, i have already told her how to do briefly. whether she gets it or not, is not my problem already. now the office is messy, i shall see how long can this last.
and guess what, i had my nails painted already. LIKE FINALLY! :D because i had to wait for my weak nails to grow and cut them away. due to the peeling of my gelish polish for cny. yea, seriously, now then my nails are back to normal! YEAH!
after so long.. hehe. a happy thing!
having withdrawal symptoms.
i really cannot take it any more. i couldnt sleep at night, and only sleep in the day. totally dont know what is going on with me.
omg, my days to getaway to taiwan is drawing near! another a week or so im going Taiwan for 12 days! so excited for this coming trip. this time round not school trips, but personal trip together with my BFF - rachel!
dont know what to expect but just anticipating for it.
now only have a few places that i must go.
- Taipei 101
- New Life Church
- Shilin Night Market
- Hot Spring
- Theme Park (anyone knows a good one?)
only 5 place for 12 days? NO WAY! i will need to good plan for these 12 days and not being controlled by my BFF mum too much or else i really have no different from staying in Singapore.
my Taiwan friends have also contacted me. we are really going to plan a weekend together. really hope that they can make it. really misses them so much. cant wait to see them again and this time round in Taiwan! ♥
my flight will be on 22 April, midnight. arriving at Taiwan at about 0600h. will have to loiter around the airport will waiting for my BFF mum to pick us up from the airport.
i have already more or less confirm with myself that im really resigning after a month in that company. because seriously, i cannot take it anymore. really sick and tired of his working style. the one who has no system is him, and the one complaining is also him. oh wells.. because you are the boss, i cannot say anything.
the one and only decision maker in the company is only you. then you want someone to come and help you as your personal assistant. so what if there is a personal assistant? he/she wont help your work load, because everything have to fking go through you before doing anything. you dont allow your authority to others, then how we, as your employee, continue with our work. even simple things like internal transfer, we also need to go through him. so now, he have all the stress and start complain..
secondly, when he is in the office, we employees will never have a day of peace. he will keep calling us into his office and asking this and there whereby i dont really see a point to it. it is totally waste of my time and delaying all the work i have in hand. wells, he should be grateful that i really stayed during the hardest time. i could have just left without giving him any thought that he would be alone and office will be crazy. but because i couldnt just leave during his hardest time, i chose to stay. ended up not being appreciated by him. and now that he has new employees, his attitude towards me has already changed. is like he prefers new than old. he could even say things like he didnt employ me, it was the previous manager employed and he have regretted not studying more about me. i was like wtf?!
thirdly, his words are not to be believed. he knows how to play with his words and allow “kids” to believe him and work for him. he once told me that she hated me as well. i was in total in believe. but after i came to know about some facts, i really hated him for telling me this. i was like, come on, he dont have to tell me this to gain more trust towards him.
he also doesnt think for other but himself. he thinks that it can be done, it can be done. he didnt think whether it can be done by us or not. he has not been a driver before. he has not been an admin before. so, we as employee knows more whether it can be done or not. however, he would keep insisting that it can be done. and later, if it really cannot be done, he would come out with some perfect excuses that he is surprise. if it can be done, he would say something like, he told us that it could be done. oh wells, like i say, he is the boss.
trust is very important. a mutual trust between employer and employee should be there. if there is none, then forget about it. after not working for a week, somehow without notice, he could actually told me that he has trusted me too much. like as if i will steal his payment from the customers. like come on, if i wanted to steal it, i would have done that and left and disappear. i wont have just continue working and waiting for you to fking catch me. dumbass. i didnt forget or missed out on purpose, yet i got comments from him that how could i forget it for so long. i was like.. wells, why not lets exchange our roles. i be him and he be me. and i will have his attitude to see if he could take it. i bet he could.
he could actually call and call until i totally feel like throwing my phone down from my house window. worst scenario, he called during CNY. first day call. second day call. third day call. i totally didnt want to pick up his calls at all. im enjoying my CNY with family and friends, but you dont all me to. even my previous manager said something like, “even if i die, he will dig me out of my grave and ask me where is this and where is that.” i totally agrees after she left.
good employee leave their bosses or superior not the job. this is totally true. he needs to learn to have employee to work for him and not for the money. be it where he goes in the future, employees will follow him. thats what happen when i worked in mac when i was younger and same situation goes for etude house. i followed my manager to where they are posted to. because trust, comfortable and fun to work with. wells, for his case, i doubt anyone would follow.
okays, i think after typing all this and recalling everything he has done towards me, i have more or less confirmed. im fking leaving this company on the 20th April, it would be my last day. and 22nd April.. TAIWAN HERE I COME! :)
he wont get me.
really hated the feeling when he calles and uses the guilt trick to let me fall for it. I AM NOT GOING TO BE SOFT HEARTED ANYMORE! to him only.
totally having no idea whats going on with me. lazy bug invaded into me? i just dont want to go to work. dont want to do anything. dont want to leave my house for even a moment. feeling to be alone just got into me again.
maybe im just tired of everything. i just need a break from many things. especially from work. it just tires me out. and people giving discouragement which i really hate the most.. no encouragement is okay, but dont have to give discouragement to me. it totally just breaks me off from everything to do better.
i think i really should tender my letter soon.
should i or should i not? sighs..